In three weeks, I'm only down 0.8 lbs. The first week I was stoked, down 3 lbs. Then the second week, the 3 lbs. were back and my measurements were better. Now this week, I'm back down 0.8 lbs., but some of my measurements are up. WHAT THE FUCK?!

I'm so pissed and extremely frustrated. I've read all the articles, I know what to do. My eating has been pretty good, but I have allowed myself some breathing room every now and again. Could that be the problem? Like last night. Big Red's uncle, girlfriend and son were over for dinner. I made a Cuban dish that consisted of rice and chicken, there was a side salad and some fresh watermelon. I didn't hog out, but I didn't skimp either. Dessert was a dark chocolate brownie with a scoop of ice cream and some caramel sauce. Oh, and I had a glass of wine. While I know that's not exactly eating on point, I also feel like one dinner shouldn't undo everything.

I just don't want to have to log every friggin morsel that goes into my mouth. It's so damn time consuming and unrealistic to keep up for the long-term. I lost almost twenty pounds before I got married and I'm trying to remember what I did for that, and now that I think about it, I did log all my calories, but I exercised just as much. I think. Sheesh, it was more than two years ago. Maybe I need to exercise more.

Oh I just don't know. I'm pissed, but I'm not giving up. Today is a new day, the start of another week. I'll just keep at it. I think I'm going to forgo the gym today and go for a run outside. It's not raining and it might do me some good to be out in the fresh air.

1 comment:

Melissa said...

hang in there! perhaps less breathing room until you reach the "i just need to maintain" phase? i remember eating a lot more salads back then. maybe you're too stressed b/c you weigh yourself too often. just throwing things out there.... stay positive! you can do it!